Found on Facebook Timeline on 1-5-17. Cardinal Cottage.
“The hardest task in the world for me is to have faith. I believe in God and I know He is present. My difficulties lie with believing He deems me worthy of His attention when so many others are going through tough times. I have trouble believing He won’t get distracted by some one else. I am aware that having parents and friends who weren’t reliable has left its mark on me. I grew up knowing that if I believed someone would come and save me, I was in for a big disappointment. I learned the hard way, that it was up to me if I wanted a better life and a satisfying one. That is a comforting way to live when you are young, strong, resourceful, and quick.
The difficulties of having faith become more obvious when old age approaches. Life becomes unpredictable. Illness strikes when you least expect it. Money becomes less plentiful, and friends and family members move or die. Losses start to multiply. Your strength starts to fail and you forget things. It becomes harder and harder to save yourself. You learn that asking for help is a rational thing to do and some tasks are just too difficult. So you learn to pray, and you ride the tough times out. You find out by experience how to adjust to change, and you discover a new level of spirituality. You also take a journey inside yourself to rediscover who you are and where you fit in God’s great design.”